Angel's Journal Entry Part 2: Based on TTYW Series

Angel Ramon
Oct 26, 2017
4 min read

(Also in today's blog we dig deeper into Angel's secret journal. As you might know, he's the awesome kick ass hero that we all love in The Thousand Years War gamelit/LitRPG/LitFPS book series. However when he wasn't kicking ass in the virtual world, he had a special journal that he would write his deepest thoughts. Not even his wife Maria know about the journal and it's never mentioned in the series at all. Today we dig even deeper into the events after the third book of the series, Revenge of the Gloobas. As always please share on Twitter, Facebook, Google+ or any social media you like. There is a very important question at the end of the blog, I like to know your thoughts on the comments section.) So enjoy and try not to cry too much...

October 23, 2016

It's a rainy day outside and my poor wife is sick with the flu. It's a really cold day outside with temperatures stuck in the 40's all day, which is unusual even for October in New York City. Then again it happens once in a blue moon. However, I'm feeling more than just cold physically, I also feel cold emotionally and spirtually.

In fact, I feel very empty inside like I have no meaning. I know Maria tells me otherwise, but eventually reality sets in that I'm a unsung hero. To be honest while I love playing hero, I also do feel empty that I must act like a regular joe once the adventure is over. It's a brutal paradox, so I'm a hero in reality as I really do save the world, but at the same time I'm no hero as no one knows what really happened as their memories are erased. Kind of a crappy paradox, isn't it? I might be a hero, but all people see is a regular loser who drowns his sorrows in a cheap $12 six-pack of Corona's and his trusty bag of pretzels.

I ask myself why do I continue to do these missions, why was I chosen, why does it have to be me, and why do I have to keep this a secret? I would like to this to be something I could tell my kids and eventually my grandkids. I cry at night knowing I have to hide this secret. I think to myself, is it even worth fighting anymore? I lost my father, my brother, my best friend, and I'm bound to lose more people I care about. Yet if I fail, I'll be looked at as the goat that failed to save Earth.

I just feel trapped in a world of make-believe where nothing is what it seems to be or should be. One thing these adventures do is give you a good case of PTSD and my dear Maria is always having nightmares about the gloobas torturing her. I try to calm her down, but sometimes she has to hold me all night just to sleep. As a result, I end up with many sleepless nights, but she needs the sleep more than I do.

We have gone through sessions with the therapist. Maria says she's doing better, but I don't know how true that is. All I know is that I haven't really gotten any better and lying to Maria isn't making it any better, but I promised to be strong for her. However, on the inside I'm falling apart and feel like I've become too weak to continue. I feel like Maria made a mistake being with me and I'm not good enough for her anymore. There are many men out there who would love to have her and are better equipped than I am.

I just feel like I can no longer play the role of a "fake" hero anymore, even though the effects are real if I fail. I just don't know what to do anymore. I might just give up being a guardian, besides my beer and pretzels are waiting for me in my secret room that I lie to Maria about using it as a storage room.

I just feel I'm not a guardian anymore and the Elder God will have to find someone more suitable for the job... (Angel stops writing and continues to drink his beer, his 8th already.)

Is this truly the end for Angel as a guardian, will The Thousand Years War series come to a halt? Has Angel given up on himself? Hopefully he finds himself soon because the world depends on it!

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