Why am I the dumbest writer in the world?

Angel Ramon
Feb 5, 2018
4 min read

1. Introduction:

You might look at the title of this post and be saying to yourself, why are you calling yourself the dumbest writer in the world? In all honestly, I'm very hard on myself and sometimes I'm my own worse critic. In fact, I think more people are impressed with me than I'm impressed with myself. So perhaps the title of this blog is a bit harsh, but I will keep that title. Why? That's because I find the more "tough love" I have for myself the tougher my skin will become and the better I become as a writer. Plus, I have no problem putting myself to shame before someone else does. I'm not afraid to say that I'm not perfect and I have plently of faluts. Now I suppose you want to know why I'm calling myself "The Dumbest Writer in the World"? Well sit back and read on my friends.

Well the title is a metaphor to be honest, I know I'm not a dummy lol. However, I call myself a dumb writer because despite the many achievements I have under my belt in my young writing stint, I feel I have made the greatest mistake ever or in your view maybe not.

2. My Mistake

Let's start out with the fact I'm 27, which to many is still young. However, I've seen writers start at the age of 20, heck even 18 and do well. The more I seen that, the more I realize that I made a huge mistake. The worst part of all this is that there is nothing I can do to fix it as I can't turn time around.

My biggest mistake is that I started too late in my life to be a writer, had I started at the age of 18 I would have been super successful already and would have already been sharper than what I am already. I know some of you will come at me and say that things happen for a reason and maybe you were not ready to be an author.

3. Reasons Why I Call it a Mistake?

While I appreciate those comments in advance, but I'm realistic as well. When I was 18 I was going to trade school to be an electrician and to be honest I had a good handle on the material that I would have a lot of free time on my hands. So instead of messing around with girls or getting into trouble, I could have used that time to improve my craft or start The Thousand Years War series. As I mentioned before, I had the idea for the series along with the Angel's Nightmare Adventure Series since my Junior High School years. Did the plot change a little between then and when I did finish my actual book? Yes, but not by much and when I saw the final product I was happy, but also face palmed because this was exactly what I had planned since I was 13.

Maybe 18 was a little too young, but when I was working as a electrician I had weekends off and I could have done a little writing then as well, plus Amazon KDP was already on the rise. Instead I wasted those years messing around. I also can't say my Ex-Girlfriend was holding me back because she was a poet herself and encouraged me to write, I just ignored her. So shame on me! Not to mention, had I got this idea earlier I might have had a chance to hop on the LitRPG boat much earlier during the genesis years and be a huge name. I had the idea, people love it, I just chose to hold on to the idea too late.

4. Fallout

While I'm happy that I've found pretty good success as an author, but I feel that I have to work twice or at times 3 times as harder to make up the lost time that I wasted. Could this be the fatal mistake that prevents me from being a legendary writer? That remains to be seen and I hope I can get over that soon. This might be my only regret in my life so far.

5. Lessons Learned

I can go on and on, but there comes a point where I have to stop and realize that I made a mistake. I have to live with this mistake forever and I have to make the best of what has happened to me so far. In a nutshell, I'm the "dumbest writer" in the world because I broke one of the cardinal rules of writing. That is to write what you feel and don't delay creativity for anyone or anything. If you got a dream story, write it, work it, edit it, and finish it! This goes for any genre not just GameLit/LitRPG that I write in. So for anyone writing a story, finish the damn story and don't wait. If you're 18, feel the urge to write, and you got a kickass story idea don't waste your life.

The one good thing this taught me is to be brutal with yourself, it's the only way you'll grow. I'm not in the business to blow smoke up my own ass knowing that I started later than I should and you have to be a tough cookie to survive as an author. I hope you enjoyed this editorial of myself and I hope it showed you how...